It hurts to think that you are not here anymore. Although I canβt help but smile with tears in my eyes to think of how we cherished each and every moment of our lives together when you were alive. I miss you dad.
I was just 5 years old when he left me forever. I just remember little memories of him carrying me wherever he goes, waking up for school and me crying always as I didn’t want to.
Life was very hard since then today I can imagine how my mom must have suffered, how she brought us up together till we completed school and college. Specially my younger sis ‘Austina’ She was born a year after my DAD passed away. π
She even didn’t know how he was and what were the things that we did together . Whenever she would ask me a question about him I would change the topic as I didn’t know what to say. But our life was not ended but it was changed.
Every time at 12:00 am on my Birthday, the Birthday wishes keep on flooding. But I spend that moment silently crying remembering those old memories I had with my dad, what would have been if he was still with us. The memories flashes through my eyes on that day every year. We wouldn’t have struggled a lot for job, Financial problems etc.
(One of the old pics..)
Now here I stand on my fathers footsteps to help my family in needs through good and bad times. And its been 19 years and I still miss you Dad ! π